I recently had a relationship with my twin flame, which was probably the most wonderful experience I've ever had. However it ended after a short while and we are no longer speaking.
During the time I was with him, it really made me realize who I am as a person and made me be the best version of myself. After our separation, I was devastated at first, but I had a feeling it was only temporary. The thought that we may reunite, even if only as friends, kept me moving forward. I decided to spend this time pursuing my interests and develop who I am as a person. I really felt so happy and was growing as a person. However there's a big problem.
The thing is, he was always part of me being my true self and I can't seem to separate myself from him in that sense. For instance I started developing new interests but the thing is some of them were things he was interested in too. Recently something happened that made me lose hope in any reunion, I became very depressed and can no longer pursue any of those interests because it reminds me of him and is painful. And even when I try to, I just don't have the passion I did before. And also I miss those times with him because I was so happy and free back then, and knowing that may never happen again is heartbreaking. The thought of losing him is painful, but it's even more painful that I lost myself. I am really lost on what to do and how to feel whole again.
During the time I was with him, it really made me realize who I am as a person and made me be the best version of myself. After our separation, I was devastated at first, but I had a feeling it was only temporary. The thought that we may reunite, even if only as friends, kept me moving forward. I decided to spend this time pursuing my interests and develop who I am as a person. I really felt so happy and was growing as a person. However there's a big problem.
The thing is, he was always part of me being my true self and I can't seem to separate myself from him in that sense. For instance I started developing new interests but the thing is some of them were things he was interested in too. Recently something happened that made me lose hope in any reunion, I became very depressed and can no longer pursue any of those interests because it reminds me of him and is painful. And even when I try to, I just don't have the passion I did before. And also I miss those times with him because I was so happy and free back then, and knowing that may never happen again is heartbreaking. The thought of losing him is painful, but it's even more painful that I lost myself. I am really lost on what to do and how to feel whole again.