Hey all,
I think I saw a post like this somewhere, but can't find it, so I made my own.
Lately, I'm having trouble meditating. I was getting back into it in December and meditated for a few weeks. Then the holidays came and I just kinda fell out of it. This month I maybe meditate every other day, but most of the time consists of prayer for blessings, whether for myself or others. I meditate about 20 mins, feel nothing and do something else. I was just about to try to meditate before writing this and an old feeling hit me. "It feels like a chore."
That's one of the biggest problems I have with meditating. Either I'm really into it and make it a daily thing, or I fall out of it. Either I enjoy myself and go deep enough for an hour, or I sit there bored and wonder why I'm even trying. It's a real problem, because I'm interested in spiritual development and I know meditation is the way to go. Yet, I just can't seem to keep it constant. And now that I'm back in this phase where it feels like a chore, I worry that I'm falling away from it.
Has anyone had similar experience? I'm sure there's a few of you. How did you cope? Do you meditate still, or differently now? I often wonder if it's because my generation is so stimulated by technology all the time that maybe I need a different type of meditation that meets that level of stimulation. But that's not really the point of meditation. Stillness and silence are the point. And so I just get lost.
I think I saw a post like this somewhere, but can't find it, so I made my own.
Lately, I'm having trouble meditating. I was getting back into it in December and meditated for a few weeks. Then the holidays came and I just kinda fell out of it. This month I maybe meditate every other day, but most of the time consists of prayer for blessings, whether for myself or others. I meditate about 20 mins, feel nothing and do something else. I was just about to try to meditate before writing this and an old feeling hit me. "It feels like a chore."
That's one of the biggest problems I have with meditating. Either I'm really into it and make it a daily thing, or I fall out of it. Either I enjoy myself and go deep enough for an hour, or I sit there bored and wonder why I'm even trying. It's a real problem, because I'm interested in spiritual development and I know meditation is the way to go. Yet, I just can't seem to keep it constant. And now that I'm back in this phase where it feels like a chore, I worry that I'm falling away from it.
Has anyone had similar experience? I'm sure there's a few of you. How did you cope? Do you meditate still, or differently now? I often wonder if it's because my generation is so stimulated by technology all the time that maybe I need a different type of meditation that meets that level of stimulation. But that's not really the point of meditation. Stillness and silence are the point. And so I just get lost.