Quote Lynn
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All that I be seems to have come in with me. I have early childhood memories of being able to do things that other's could
not. Seveve ME well I feel to be shy and inwards as I know that path while for a child is lonely it was better than doing things that might
well have got me in hot water. I simply seem to KNOW how to do things or how things work. The best expample is seeing Spirits I many
times can see them as clearly as I see the living before me. I can have a full on two way conversation. As a child this was NOT to be discussed
in the family ( I know well for GOOD reason) as one might well have been locked away in a mental institution for such talk 40 odd year's ago.
It never left me. Without though the "understandings" of it all as one got older then it became play. OH I can do this and that, and being a
loner and left to be alone in what was thought to be being SHY I played. I would read anything and everything as a young teen I could
find. MANY were in the "Reference Only" section of the Library so I was not allowed to take them out as a child BUT I could read and make
notes. I did. Even when the library called home and said that some of the "books" I was in were not age appropriate me parents never batted an
eye.
I know well that "Dark" path I went on was there for a reason to make me whom I am today and so that I can do some of the work I
now do. Too that balance in me Guides was there in the contrast on WHOM they be. One being a Buddist Master the other being a Black Witch they
serve me well in the keeping me from going to far on way or the other. While it was not til I was 16 and almost took me life that I knew fully
of them. Even then I was not one to listen and got a lesson that did make me listen. A NDE is a GOOD wake up call. I now listen to
that inner voice but not having an understanding of it earlier on and being able to do so very many things one does have in them that URGE to
play and experiment. Its a balance that one seeks. Expample is if one says something harsh to me I could well sent that back at them in energy
BUT I know that I would not want that on me so balance and understanding stops me in that. I can read most anyone BUT as I do not
like it done to me I will not go there openly to other's. Life has come with many lessons. I have slayed many a "demon" for lack of a
better word in me. Too I know that those paths served me well and that the good always prevailed over the bad I might well had done. Come from
the "why me" to "embracing me" for being whom I am. Lost for a great many year's but too that was all a part of one's path. I do
leave somethings around me SLEEP. Knowing well if NEED be its there to open, one can never clear a deed done but on can make possitive ammends.
I knew it, I could feel the familiarity. As a child I was not allowed to
speak of the things I experienced either. As a result the experiences
increased and so did the fear of sharing them. Eventually, being touched
by spirits could no longer be denied, justified or rationalized.
Regardless of what others thought of me I had to come to realize, I could
see both dark and light spirits and have experienced both angels and
demons in my life time. At this point in me life it doesn't matter if others believe just
as long as I no longer doubt myself. Thank you Lynn for sharing
this part of yourself with us. I often share how my family is full of
variety especially where religion is concerned. For this reason I follow
no religion I enjoy the freedom of learning and admiring them all.
Some superstitions have deep truth while others are very superficial. I've come to know that spirits on the outside do speak to the spirit within a person. This ability has nothing to do with my day to day activity. This is why I feel you sound like ancient spirit to me; because you have been in conscious communication with spirits since your childhood and so have I. My daughter is the second daughter born of me, who is also the second daughter, and I can see she is far more clairvoyant than I.
Potions and magic has always intrigued me and still does. Having discovered the meaning of "Karma" at an early I dare not attempt to alter life situations with spells and potions. Not to say I have fooled around with it. Having said all that one of the most important lessons I've learned in life is; "The power within me is far............ grater than any
thing out side of me!"
I am so happy you shared this part of yourself Lynn, thank you!
Love to all...