sparkly Tue Feb 08, 2011 11:55 am
when i was 12 i had a casual visit (daydream you might say) to my classroom from (whom i now believe to be) archangel michael. the intimation was that i was shortly to finish up and did i want to. my answer is that i could do much more. i distinctly remember that thought. i think it was from then, that i began to think of this as my "pivotal life"- strange words for a 12 yo. i remeber then that i saw myself sitting in a garden one afternoon and passing away at age 84.
i always used to cry for the loss of my father if i got emotional, perhaps around this time. when i was 18, my father was dying, he was told my brother was to be flown in a few weeks (on a mercy flight from his work) from karratha, he answered "what a disappointment" implying that he would not see him. he didn't. he did tell one sister that he was going to see his mother and would just lay down his tired body. we did have one afternoon together a few days before he passed and he was adamant we were to share the special tea i'd bought him with the sisters, at one point he said we couldnt' wait for them and would have to have it now. he was right about that.
when my sister got cancer we all knew about it and in my head the song from racy played, "you're gonna lose that girl."
so i knew. she got better. then one day in september a year later some odd things happened and she went into hospital. that night or the next night she told another sister she was dying but not to worry because she had her yoga (sahaja) she went into a coma and died 4 days later.
though my mother made plans right up until she went into hospital at the end of july 2010, she had expected to go in the last year or so, but apparetly she did on the one hand especially in the last couple of weeks.
yes, i think people know.when some interesting things happened to me some years back i asked "why is this happening to me, am i missing something that i'm being given this, am i dying?" i was told no, i would have been told, evrybody has a right to know when they die. except in instant accidents, i was told.