I was with my friend H and her husband who is a firefighter, and my kids and my husband, and my mum. We had rented a cabin by a lake (niiiice) - it was like the end cabin in a row of them. The stove inside was a gas stove and needed to be primed and lit, so I did all that, and my mum wanted to light it so I said go ahead, it's ready. She pushed the button and the flame shot so high it left a scorch mark on the ceiling, went through the ceiling, and the attic set on fire (where we couldn't see). H's husband sighed and said he ought to get the fire extinguisher, and then he got the fire put out before it reached any of the other cabins. We had to report the incident to the owner's obviously so we did and they did some sort of background check on me and found a piece of paper from when I had therapy for depression back in 2000. They went ahead and gave the paper to my friends, but not me so I didn't see it. I came in the room and they were all sniggering at me and laughing behind their hands, and they were saying to each other "see, she's trying to get attention, that's why she did it" I don't know the question that was on the paper, but the therapist had written "does not get any attention from her husband" and it meant both romantic and friendly attention. So, not only was I feeling angry, and betrayed, but incredibly humiliated - and now the owner's were saying the whole accident was arson and I was going to have to go to jail.
I can see the fire and the cabin being some sort of personal transformation...but the rest has got me still feeling quite upset and I'm not really making sense of it. Any thoughts?
I can see the fire and the cabin being some sort of personal transformation...but the rest has got me still feeling quite upset and I'm not really making sense of it. Any thoughts?
