Lynn Thu Apr 14, 2011 1:58 am
Hello
Its all good. I have done NDE events and talked on what happened to me. Its an open book in life really.
Here is what I wrote on the event for a NDE site.
NDE ( Near Death Experience) Emotions and Later Feelings )
I was 21 year’s old it was October 1st. I was leaving out the back door from a friends house. There were 18 wooden “grey” painted steps. I took the first step and the last step at the same time. To come to land face first on the cement sidewalk. I remember the night it was raining very heavily.
I went down them face first. I bounced off all 18 of them. To land on the left side of me chin and open it wide, and in that I shattered all of me teeth. What was not know til about 6 months later is the “real” damage I had done. I had “lock jaw” and it was thought that a sports medicine therapist was the best for working on that. That work started even before any dental work could be done. That took a year to start. For three months I could not lay down without blacking out, the Dr thought it was just pain doing it and told me that was expected. To finally have him one day throw his hands up in the air and say I am done with you and this it’s a was waste of time and money but I was to have a CT Scan done. WOW !
Finally I had more answers they found the TRUE damage done. The C4 fracture and the jaw fracture. I changed Dr’s and started to get some help. I got the teeth fixed and the outside scars healed but the inside one’s did not.
Just over a year after the fall I so struggled with issues around it. I put grey in “” marks for a reason. Any encounter with grey stairs FROZE me in panic mode. To the point of during an evacuation of the Canada Customs Building I worked in I froze paralyzed on them. Not screaming or crying just frozen in fear. I was carried out by two men, and was looked at by the paramedics and fire officials that came. At that time “PTS” Post Traumatic Stress was not well known or even documented. That is what I had. “Grey” stairs in any form would trigger it. They found nothing wrong with me and I went back up the elevator to work. Not really thinking on the stairs at all. Til the next time it happened again then I sought some help.
I went to see the Dr and he suggested I see a psychologist that specialized in “Traumatic” events and issues. I was resistant but too knew that I had a fear there for some reason. I went and he suggested a “Living the Event Regression” . Which is where ye are literally taken back to that event in ye’s brain and ye re live it . I was taken to the top of the stairs and I fell down them. In the physical I remembered yelling out “I will not black out” when I hit the ground as I saw stars ( like in the cartoons when one is hit over the head). What I really yelled out was “I will not die”. I told him of a communication I had with two people ( I know now were me Guides ) and that I was given a second chance but I had lessons to learn. I told him of the Light I saw there and how I saw me. I saw the lifeless body of me laying there from above it, a huge pool of blood and teeth.
I was driven to the ER (no ambulance was called ) and dropped off. The friends family LEFT me there. Afraid of being sued I later found out. I remember fully the ER. I remember the Dr. and how I so did not want touch me unless I could see him stitch me up, and him being patient with me but too upset. The nurse had to hold the mirror for me. I complained then about severe “NECK PAIN” in the chart report but I had to be stitched up first for loss of blood. Then X RAY was done, what I know now is by the time that happened too much fluids had entered the tissues for it to SHOW clearly the damages. I do not remember WHO drove me home.
From the regression came therapy for the “grey” stairs issues where one had to learn to travel them. Face that fear and clear it. Too from there the Psychologist wondered on more damage that might well have been done and suggest that a CT Scan of the heart be done. I had one done and it was found that I had heart failure in the fall. What they suspect is that the impact on the stairs stopped the heart but the impact on the ground slowly re started it. From there the pieces of the full puzzle started to come together. Why I could not lay down, I was scared of going over. Why I feared so the stairs, why I had nightmares and would wake screaming “ I was dying”. Its now known as PTS. Then it was not.
I remember coming back in to the body, as I remember only being worried on me teeth. I was at the time doing modeling work, and I valued me smile. NOW I know that life is value more than the looks in the mirror.
I get asked always WHY I did not seek to go into the Light further. I was on a very dark path in life at that point. I was “Playing” in the dark side of Paranormal things ( without details) I had lost any connection to God, and I went the other path from God. Being one that was and is able to do things other’s find a wonder, I was given a LESSON. I know well that I was given a lesson by me Guides or Higher Power as there was more “positive” things for me to do. That night I had done something with that friend and I feel was TOLD it had to stop. It did stop. I wanted to have more life, I had a mate, a house, and while we knew then no kids would come ( so we thought ) I wanted a life.
I have talked to many that have had a NDE that did enter into the tunnel or door and are not happy they are back as it felt so peaceful. I remember me Dad always saying when one’s number is UP that is it. So when one comes back that is not yet the time is all. Do I regret not going in, no. Do I wonder what it would have been personally like, no. I know from all the work with Ghosts that I have helped cross over to become Spirit that it’s a good and positive experience and that when the TIME comes I will be fine going. Like I will know.
Lynn
, but what about crossing over? Many believe we journey through a kind of tunnel but how do we journey, what do we see on the way, do we go through it at lightening speed or drift through slowly taking any scenery in at out leisure, perhaps we are shown things on the way?
