(this is copied from my Junk Room blog)
(3 March)
I got many of my crystal orders on this day, the only ones I'm waiting for are the ones coming from the UK. These would be: Celestobarite, Prehnite, 'Orchid' Calcite, Chrysotile in Serpentine, Stilbite, (another)Witches Finger Quartz, Thulite, and Pentagonite in Stilbite.
(Just a note: I didn't purchase these from the place in the links above
- I had to use that link because this is where I found out about some
of these.)
So I decided to change around my crystals because I was 'due' for an upgrade. I could feel it.
After I had changed them around, I decided to take off all the things I
had put on my U-Boat commander's cap. I did this because these things
on it were not 'me'. Yeah, they looked neat, but it was not 'me'. I've
decided that when I go to this WWII event
that there will be no medals worn, because I didn't wear them on my
boat...nor will I have any devices on my cap...because I didn't have any
back then.
I was quite the unassuming commander I guess...
...my reefer jacket all messed up to hell as you can see in the photo
below (scan from 'Battle Beneath the Waves' by Robert Stern). If you
look closely you'll notice a button missing from my jacket...and the
'piston rings' coming of the one sleeve. I've already long since hacked
one button off my jacket, but I haven't touched the 'piston rings'
because they are sewn all the way around and into the seam...not that
something like that would stop me of course.
It is like I am now 'consciously' remembering - things are
connecting...thankfully. One can put up with internal chaos for only so
long...
Going back to the crystals...
I must say...someone out there loves me. I have bought quite a number of crystals from this place.
This lady...bless her...(that's not something I often say)...gave me
some 'true metaphysical gems' as freebies. I thanked her via email, but
now I'm doing it publicly.
In one of my earlier orders she sent me a very clear, perfectly formed
Phenacite/Phenakite. According to what I've read on this, it is one of
the most sought after stones by 'metaphysical' people because it is
'supposed to' have the highest vibrations of all the stones - yes, even
higher than a Diamond. It's a tiny lil thing, and I would have never
thought to pick it to buy, but ever since I've gotten it, I've been
using it 24/7. This is better than Blue Kyanite to help keep the
'energy flowing' with what I'm going through. I've noticed that when I
don't have it, I feel this oppressive 'heavy' feeling on top of my head
and become quite irritable (that's just a little taste to let you know
the kind of energy I'm pulling a 'trash removal' with...too bad there is
no 'Dirty Jobs - The Metaphysical Series'...).
Some other ones this lady sent me were: Orange Millenium Stone, Super Seven/Melody's Stone, and Goshenite, as freebies. Again - none of these I would have thought to buy.
As corny as this will sound...it is these kinds of things that help me 'keep the faith' so to speak.
Then there was something interesting about my other order from another
business - I had ordered a natural Citrine (not that heat treated
Amethyst which I consider junk even though it looks neat).
This Citrine point has a black phantom in the one end of it. Having read about Black Phantom Quartz,
I already knew this has something to do with the Shadow integration,
but also with help in dealing with the physical 'after effects' of
having cleared out 'etheric crud'...(*sings Roto Rooter tune*).
What is really neat about this, is the fact that I have been using many
stones to help with the so-called 'Solar Plexus' area - I could say this
started with the Gaspeite (happily assisted with the FES Rosemary
essence).
I don't have the most wonderful of appetites, despite enjoying food - I
do like to eat, but having CFS doesn't help nor does living alone. With
living alone - it is a delicate balance of being able to make just
enough food for yourself so that you don't waste too much, if any. With
the CFS...it just 'wonkifies' my appetite and I hate it. So with these
two things in mind, I've been trying to get myself sorted out for the
umpteeth time concerning my diet and how much food to buy so as not to
waste. I guess a third, but perhaps not totally irrelevant thing, is
that - quite frankly, I'm not used to making my own dinners - think
about this: we had cooks aboard the ships in the Handelsmarine, we had
cooks aboard the U-Boats, my mother cooked, my wives cooked...heck, I
think my sister even cooked. It's not that I can't cook, and so don't
mistake me for some chauvanistic pig (as I mentioned before about the
ships and the U-Boat if you weren't paying attention), but cooking is,
like consumerism, actually a rather alien thing to me. It actually
'feels' out of place for me to be cooking, even though I've had many
compliment my cooking. I suppose it 'feels' out of place for me because
in all actuality, it really IS out of place. Oh - and I forgot to
add...in the officers' home...yeah cooks there too. The French
restaurants...the chefs there. I guess you can see where I'm coming
from on this...now where is my Ramen...
The crystals have been helping my 'guts' though which is nice. But also
this body, for some reason, has not had the best of times with the
digestive system. I wonder if that is because the sense of 'Self' was
all but annihilated due to abuse...and belief systems that teach about
sin/guilt/hell/judgment/bad karma...that just doesn't help an already
bad situation. In other words 'blame the victim' nonsense, but also the
'new age doormat' nonsense as well.
I suppose one can examine this further - by saying that the black
phantom in the Citrine is a sort of 'reclaiming' the sense of Self -
soul retrieval via Shadow integration. By helping the body reclaim the
sense of Self - I am able to 'ground' better my sense of identity and
all that makes me...me. The 'higher ego forces' (as mentioned in the
description of the Rosemary essence). My full 'earth identity' of
Gunther Prien brought forth from the depths.
*pauses and raises eyebrows in mock amazement*
Faaahscinating.
Should the soul exchange have happened when the 'walk-in' psychic said
it did...I guess this incident shouldn't have come as much of a
surprise:
From 'The Scottish Banner' - September 2002 -
"TORPEDO" - Scapa Flow, Orkneys: An oil tanker recently had a narrow
escape when it was nearly hit by a German torpedo - fired 63 years ago!
The missile was one of four launched by submarine U-47 to scupper the
battleship 'Royal Oak' in 1939 resulting in the loss of 833 lives.
Even though it failed to hit its target, the torpedo has lain on the
seabed ever since, until it recently resurfaced in the dark waters of
Scapa Flow and started to drift towards the 62,000 ton Norwegian tanker
'Petrotrym' , which was at anchor. Fortunately an attentive watchman
noticed the barnacle-encrusted missile and raised the alarm in time.
The 15 foot torpedo was towed away by a tug to safe waters a mile
away where it was detonated by a Royal Navy bomb disposal unit.
Although its warhead was missing, the Navy said that it posed a genuine
threat as it still contained its chamber of compressed gas.
The torpedo was removed on the 9th September. According to the
psychic the soul exchange happened a few days after the appearance of
this torpedo.
(3 March)
I got many of my crystal orders on this day, the only ones I'm waiting for are the ones coming from the UK. These would be: Celestobarite, Prehnite, 'Orchid' Calcite, Chrysotile in Serpentine, Stilbite, (another)Witches Finger Quartz, Thulite, and Pentagonite in Stilbite.
(Just a note: I didn't purchase these from the place in the links above
- I had to use that link because this is where I found out about some
of these.)
So I decided to change around my crystals because I was 'due' for an upgrade. I could feel it.
After I had changed them around, I decided to take off all the things I
had put on my U-Boat commander's cap. I did this because these things
on it were not 'me'. Yeah, they looked neat, but it was not 'me'. I've
decided that when I go to this WWII event
that there will be no medals worn, because I didn't wear them on my
boat...nor will I have any devices on my cap...because I didn't have any
back then.
I was quite the unassuming commander I guess...
...my reefer jacket all messed up to hell as you can see in the photo
below (scan from 'Battle Beneath the Waves' by Robert Stern). If you
look closely you'll notice a button missing from my jacket...and the
'piston rings' coming of the one sleeve. I've already long since hacked
one button off my jacket, but I haven't touched the 'piston rings'
because they are sewn all the way around and into the seam...not that
something like that would stop me of course.
It is like I am now 'consciously' remembering - things are
connecting...thankfully. One can put up with internal chaos for only so
long...
Going back to the crystals...
I must say...someone out there loves me. I have bought quite a number of crystals from this place.
This lady...bless her...(that's not something I often say)...gave me
some 'true metaphysical gems' as freebies. I thanked her via email, but
now I'm doing it publicly.
In one of my earlier orders she sent me a very clear, perfectly formed
Phenacite/Phenakite. According to what I've read on this, it is one of
the most sought after stones by 'metaphysical' people because it is
'supposed to' have the highest vibrations of all the stones - yes, even
higher than a Diamond. It's a tiny lil thing, and I would have never
thought to pick it to buy, but ever since I've gotten it, I've been
using it 24/7. This is better than Blue Kyanite to help keep the
'energy flowing' with what I'm going through. I've noticed that when I
don't have it, I feel this oppressive 'heavy' feeling on top of my head
and become quite irritable (that's just a little taste to let you know
the kind of energy I'm pulling a 'trash removal' with...too bad there is
no 'Dirty Jobs - The Metaphysical Series'...).
Some other ones this lady sent me were: Orange Millenium Stone, Super Seven/Melody's Stone, and Goshenite, as freebies. Again - none of these I would have thought to buy.
As corny as this will sound...it is these kinds of things that help me 'keep the faith' so to speak.
Then there was something interesting about my other order from another
business - I had ordered a natural Citrine (not that heat treated
Amethyst which I consider junk even though it looks neat).
This Citrine point has a black phantom in the one end of it. Having read about Black Phantom Quartz,
I already knew this has something to do with the Shadow integration,
but also with help in dealing with the physical 'after effects' of
having cleared out 'etheric crud'...(*sings Roto Rooter tune*).
What is really neat about this, is the fact that I have been using many
stones to help with the so-called 'Solar Plexus' area - I could say this
started with the Gaspeite (happily assisted with the FES Rosemary
essence).
I don't have the most wonderful of appetites, despite enjoying food - I
do like to eat, but having CFS doesn't help nor does living alone. With
living alone - it is a delicate balance of being able to make just
enough food for yourself so that you don't waste too much, if any. With
the CFS...it just 'wonkifies' my appetite and I hate it. So with these
two things in mind, I've been trying to get myself sorted out for the
umpteeth time concerning my diet and how much food to buy so as not to
waste. I guess a third, but perhaps not totally irrelevant thing, is
that - quite frankly, I'm not used to making my own dinners - think
about this: we had cooks aboard the ships in the Handelsmarine, we had
cooks aboard the U-Boats, my mother cooked, my wives cooked...heck, I
think my sister even cooked. It's not that I can't cook, and so don't
mistake me for some chauvanistic pig (as I mentioned before about the
ships and the U-Boat if you weren't paying attention), but cooking is,
like consumerism, actually a rather alien thing to me. It actually
'feels' out of place for me to be cooking, even though I've had many
compliment my cooking. I suppose it 'feels' out of place for me because
in all actuality, it really IS out of place. Oh - and I forgot to
add...in the officers' home...yeah cooks there too. The French
restaurants...the chefs there. I guess you can see where I'm coming
from on this...now where is my Ramen...
The crystals have been helping my 'guts' though which is nice. But also
this body, for some reason, has not had the best of times with the
digestive system. I wonder if that is because the sense of 'Self' was
all but annihilated due to abuse...and belief systems that teach about
sin/guilt/hell/judgment/bad karma...that just doesn't help an already
bad situation. In other words 'blame the victim' nonsense, but also the
'new age doormat' nonsense as well.
I suppose one can examine this further - by saying that the black
phantom in the Citrine is a sort of 'reclaiming' the sense of Self -
soul retrieval via Shadow integration. By helping the body reclaim the
sense of Self - I am able to 'ground' better my sense of identity and
all that makes me...me. The 'higher ego forces' (as mentioned in the
description of the Rosemary essence). My full 'earth identity' of
Gunther Prien brought forth from the depths.
*pauses and raises eyebrows in mock amazement*
Faaahscinating.
Should the soul exchange have happened when the 'walk-in' psychic said
it did...I guess this incident shouldn't have come as much of a
surprise:
From 'The Scottish Banner' - September 2002 -
"TORPEDO" - Scapa Flow, Orkneys: An oil tanker recently had a narrow
escape when it was nearly hit by a German torpedo - fired 63 years ago!
The missile was one of four launched by submarine U-47 to scupper the
battleship 'Royal Oak' in 1939 resulting in the loss of 833 lives.
Even though it failed to hit its target, the torpedo has lain on the
seabed ever since, until it recently resurfaced in the dark waters of
Scapa Flow and started to drift towards the 62,000 ton Norwegian tanker
'Petrotrym' , which was at anchor. Fortunately an attentive watchman
noticed the barnacle-encrusted missile and raised the alarm in time.
The 15 foot torpedo was towed away by a tug to safe waters a mile
away where it was detonated by a Royal Navy bomb disposal unit.
Although its warhead was missing, the Navy said that it posed a genuine
threat as it still contained its chamber of compressed gas.
The torpedo was removed on the 9th September. According to the
psychic the soul exchange happened a few days after the appearance of
this torpedo.
