Encounters with Reality Girl

Didn't know where to put this and have mentioned some about these experiences before, but want to put them down in order as I have experienced them.

These taught me a lot about dreaming and about Karma to say the least.

Certain members here and certain ideas and posts have made me think this may be a good time to talk about those experiences..

It all started with a "chance" meeting with a certain girl. She was very
beautiful and we only talked for a few moments, but when I looked into
her eyes, there was something different there. Hard to explain, but I
couldn't forget it. Later that day, I was sitting in my garden, and
I "chanced" to see a yellow caterpillar crawling on a tree trunk. I watched
with entranced delight, and it seemed to stop and look back at me, and I
felt this weird feeling like it had eyes that were like the eyes of the girl I
had met, and my mind went into a sort of altered state of beingness. I
couldn't see or hear and really all my 5 senses seemed to be gone. It was
something like being in a dream, but it wasn't a dream. I could feel
emotions though, very intense emotions. Some like I had never ever felt
before. Inexplicable, but wondrous and rapturous! In this strange state
of being, I saw the caterpillar drop from the tree and disappear into pure
nothingness. I felt so sad, but then appeared a beautiful rose at the trunk
of the tree and peered at me, and it was the same as the girl and the
caterpillar, and I thought "O this cannot be" and with that very thought
the rose disappeared and I returned to normalcy, but I wasn't so fond of
being normal as I used to be!

I woke up the next morning very happy, but it seemed like something
had changed in me. I didn't know what, but something. The day went
well, and later on in the evening I sat out in the garden again, and
thought about what "seemed" to have been an hallucination of sorts
(although the "seeming" magic of the moment was certainly difficult to
remove from my memory). I was hoping something similar would happen
again, but although everything was so tranquil and peaceful and happy,
there was no hoped for re-occurance of the experience. That night
though, I had some very strange dreams...


Chances don't just happen
they happen for reasons
just like trees grow and drop leaves in
their various seasons

Eyes don't just glow and entrance
they enhance the very world around them
and envelop the very same world
that has no power to entrap them...

Hi Mayflow that was lovely to read it sounds like you had quote a deep and emotional spiritual experience there

It was
something like being in a dream, but it wasn't a dream. I could feel
emotions though, very intense emotions. Some like I had never ever felt
before. Inexplicable, but wondrous and rapturous! In this strange state
of being,

This sounds like a very deep meditative state

Violet wrote:Hi Mayflow that was lovely to read it sounds like you had quote a deep and emotional spiritual experience there

It was
something like being in a dream, but it wasn't a dream. I could feel
emotions though, very intense emotions. Some like I had never ever felt
before. Inexplicable, but wondrous and rapturous! In this strange state
of being,

This sounds like a very deep meditative state

I suppose it was. I was sitting out in my veggie garden at the time, but Reality Girl did seem to throw me a lot of challenges after this, especially in dreams.

I didn't quite wake up the next morning, I was in a daze, and I looked at
the window and I saw a form appear from the rising sun. I rubbed my
eyes but they wouldn't clear and the form drew nearer and nearer and
took the shape of a beautiful woman in a long black chiffonny dress and
she had hair so long it was flowing behind her and she came right through
the window as if it didn't exist! Her hair trailed on the ground behind her
like a veil, and she came over and stood beside my bed. I was petrified.
I didn't know if I was dreaming or awake and I wanted desperately to
awaken and yet she was so beautiful I didn't want to. Damn, was I
confused! She smiled sweetly and sat down beside me and place her
hand upon my thigh. She said "Don't be scared, don't stop to think, don't
stop to question, just listen!".

My mind did some sort of weird double-take, and I blinked one time and
she was gone! I got up to get ready to go to work, and decided it must
have been nothing but a dream. A very very VIVID dream, but just a
dream! There seemed to be no other explanation!

Mind tricks, mind games, don't we all play them?
In fact anyone reading this better beware, because what you think reality
is or is not, just might be challenged by the words you will hear here...

It sounds like a spirit to me

I was sitting out in my veggie garden at the time,

Most communication with spirits was done in darkened rooms at one time this just goes to show it doesn't matter where you are

It took a while before I even really thought about any of what had
happened again. I think I was kinda in shock and I was not ready to deal
with this unusual state of existence like I'd never ever even heard of or
been told about by anyone before. Too surrealistic to be realistic, it
seemed to me...Probably more like the fear that everyone else had a
sense of sanity and mine was on the borderline of being broken...

That is when the bad dreams started. I mean the dreams themselves
were not so bad. They were fairly normal, fairly benign... but within the
dreams, something would happen that I would think "no, this really can't
happen in the real world"...and then I would realize.."oh, this is just a
dream"! , Then I would try to awaken, but I couldn't! I would try to
shake my head, and slap myself in the face, but I continued entrapped
within the dream! Man-oh-Man did I ever get frustrated! Finally against all
seeming odds, I would awaken and think "Oh this is so much better" --
Well that is until something unthinkable would happen again, and I would
realize "Oh no, I haven't really awoken! This is just a new dream!". Oh-so-
confused was I! Eventually, I would really awaken to the supposed reality
of the consensual world around me, and I would be afraid to go back to
sleep again, because I knew that things would not make much logical
sense in that oh-so-abstruse world! It just really scared me to be so lost!

These dreams continued for several weeks. One night I awoke from a
series of such dreams and I didn't want to go back to sleep. In the last
dream, my house had been invaded by strangers, and I had very
unsettling emotions about this. That's the next time she came to visit.

She came from the darkness this time. She started off as a tiny bright
white light in the distant horizon, and as she drew nearer, I could see she
was dressed all in white with short golden colored hair. Very Angelic
looking I thought and she had a golden aura around her. It struck me odd
that the first time she had come from the Sun all in black, and this time
she came from the darkness all in white and gold.

The very fact that I was thinking of such things made me realize I didn't
have the same trembling fear that I had had at her first appearance. In
fact, I felt a sense of comfort at seeing her again. True to form, she
passed right through the closed window and sat down on the floor next to
my bed. She just sat there looking at me! I could only look obliquely at
her eyes as they shined like brilliant green emeralds that emitted an
extremely intense light that sort of blinded me. She place a hand softly on
my chest and said "May please , would you close your eyes? No
blinking this time, and it is ok if you think, but please also listen,

please?"?

I did as she asked. She continued "You have been approaching your
dreams with a sense of fear because they have been challenging the way
you have been taught that reality should be. Your last dream showed you
how you saw life as like having strangers enter your house (your mind)
and letting them run it for you. You are not the brightest of all humans
are you, May?"? Then she giggled softly. I started to open my eyes
and I wanted to retort, but she gently rubbed her fingertips over my chest
and said "Please do not let your ego drive you to make such lowly
comparisons between self and others. This is a common human frailty, as
driven as you are by competition. Such a reaction is still like letting
strangers live your life and run your mind for you....You didn't like that
dream very much, now did you?"? I still had my eyes closed, but I could
feel the intenseness of her look and it felt like her eyes were dancing with
delight...

I wanted to ask her who she was, where she came from... but she took
her hand from my chest and placed a finger on my lips and said "Shhh'
darling, and just think your thoughts rather than speaking them. I will be
able to communicate much more quickly and effectively that way!".


I didn't even think a thought at that point, and she said "This is much
better, as you can be much more receptive this way. Do you remember a
dream, dear May, where you were given certain gifts, but you just
gave them away again to others whom you could see they were more
correctly suited for, and while they were just right for these others at the
time, they were not just right for you? And do you remember that you
thought you would receive just the right gift for yourself as well, but you
did not?"? I just brought the dream to mind when she pressed slightly
harder on my lips to indicate to me not to think any further. "There are
elements of the fullness of that dream which you are not yet able to
comprehend", she continued, "but rather than the gift, all you got was to
be told that you would have to await your gift from the"... My thoughts
seemed to quickly break into her thoughts here, and I continued the
thought... "Visitor from the East, and when you first appeared to me you
came from the rising sun! ...

"Yes", she thought to me, "but there will be other humans who will also
become a part of this!".

She took her finger from my lips and I opened my eyes and she dimmed
her eyes down to a luster, and she looked into my eyes and said "Do you
trust me"? I wished then that I could just think the answer to her for
there was zero doubt in my mind about it, but I realized that when she
had made her eyes more human, she had returned also us to a more
normalized mode of communication. I just meekly replied "Yes", and her
eyes glowed for just a spark of a second, and she said "Yes, I know you
do". She smiled and carried on by saying
"There are ways for you to lose your fears of altering your state of
reality", and she smiled again and said
"I should say enhancing and expanding your consciousness!". Then she
started laughing!

"Next time you have the feeling within a dream that it
may be a dream, don't panic like you have been! Don't try to awaken
from it. Remember, if you can, your trust in me, or at least trust within
yourself... It won't be so easy to do in a dream as it is to think about
consciously though! I will be back to teach you much much more, but one
step at a time... and remember this too...if you are confused about
whether you are still in a dream or have awoken into consensus reality,
try to look at your alarm clock and read the time on it. If you cannot, you
are still in the dream....see ya!". And she disappeared.

MY PERSONAL OPINION
I take it for a cue.  I hope you are not into doing spiritual drugs because I look at that caterpillar as a hint that your female squeeze is somehow related to opiates.  Maybe she took tylenol with codine I dunno.  I take that innocent vision as an cautionary one.  Again my personal opinion.  I am not a professional because if I was then I would not be spiritual at all.  I would be sued.  LOL!

Now I know where your Reality girl comes from,thought I had seen the name somewhere....
Is she a guide or a someone who just appeared from nowhere??

avianscepter wrote:MY PERSONAL OPINION
I take it for a cue.  I hope you are not into doing spiritual drugs because I look at that caterpillar as a hint that your female squeeze is somehow related to opiates.  Maybe she took tylenol with codine I dunno.  I take that innocent vision as an cautionary one.  Again my personal opinion.  I am not a professional because if I was then I would not be spiritual at all.  I would be sued.  LOL!

I don't do drugs

A caterpillar is a Butterfly in development,
a sort of temporary disguise
and Reality Girl is not a female squeeze, she is beyond description.
One day you may look at a tree or a flower
or at some animal or bird or some grass or the sky
and you will see into her eyes.

Then the caterpillar becomes the Butterfly.

SpiritVoices wrote:Now I know where your Reality girl comes from,thought I had seen the name somewhere....
Is she a guide or a someone who just appeared from nowhere??

Both. She is everywhere including nowhere. Would be scary is she weren't so nice.
Taught me a lot about my dreams and even predicted some of them before I had them.

By now, I expect that you know what she said about your deceased love partner in Tusita Heaven building a Heavenly mansion for you?

mayflow wrote:

SpiritVoices wrote:Now I know where your Reality girl comes from,thought I had seen the name somewhere....
Is she a guide or a someone who just appeared from nowhere??

Both. She is everywhere including nowhere. Would be scary is she weren't so nice.
Taught me a lot about my dreams and even predicted some of them before I had them.

By now, I expect that you know what she said about your deceased love partner in Tusita Heaven building a Heavenly mansion for you?

I read it last night before I popped off to bed....eyes were closing...  
I remember Ken and I having a chuckle about what kind of place we would have after death....It was going to be the most luxury home possible....
I did put a dream in here a short while ago of a very vivid dream of the home we would have in spirit...the recollection of it is very clear...

I couldn't get her off of my mind after that. I thought about things she had said, but I couldn't understand what she meant about "enhanced and expanded consciousness".. I tried to analyze that, but I just couldn't figure it out...and then, why did she laugh after saying that? She did call me "not the brightest of all humans" as well, and while I knew she was somewhat teasing, I am bright enough to know that most teasing has an element of truth to it. And why did she appear to me? And what did she mean by saying that other humans would also become a part of "this"? I found all of this very confusing! Still, I knew that I did trust her. I thought about how she had changed from direct thought communication, to verbalizing, before asking me about trust. My best guess was that when I would have thought back to her, it would have also included the idea that I had fallen hopelessly in love with her, and that that was not something she was encouraging. And what about this idea of not panicking in these dreams? Would that be possible? After all, it is like she said: To think this while awake is easy, but to think it while dreaming on purpose? I wasn't so sure...I also wondered "Is this her true form? She looked similar both times I saw her, but not quite the same either, and what about the human girl I had met ? She seemed to have the same sort of something in her eyes..and what about...well I just wondered on and on...

The dreams did change, though. I still couldn't stop the panic and frustration fully, but what she had said about looking at the alarm clock to see if I could see it and tell the time, really did work for me. It didn't eliminate the frustration, but it did lessen it considerably. The content of the dreams changed as well, but not for the better! Yes, they were not so benign as most had been before, and they did seem more meaningful, but I kept getting lost in them, and that also caused fear and panic. I would often enter a building, get lost, then finally find my way back out, but then not be able to find my car, and that really frustrated me, as well...

I thought about this for a long time and then, One spring day I was out playing in my vegetable garden, and I just laid in the dirt and looked up into the sky. I saw a White Eagle flying high overhead. It gave out an Eagle scream and I watched it fly off into the distance. I closed my eyes and wondered ( I had been wondering so much about so many things lately, now just one more, I guess).. As I lay there I felt a presence sort of saturate my body. It seemed to be within every fiber of my being. I knew it was HER! She said, "You really should eat more tomatoes, or tomato based foods. Pickles would be good as well, and maybe a little hot pepper, and some garlic--just a suggestion, my love, why don't you open your eyes now"?

I opened my eyes and it was like I was in an entirely different world. Somewhere in deep space. It was like she had created separation between us again and I was looking into her eyes and could see nothing else in the world whatsoever. She said "See, you are looking into my real eyes now. Isn't it very strange to you"? Well, I sure couldn't argue that point! Then she continued "This is even weirder than your dreams, now, isn't it, love"?
Again, no argument. "But you are not scared now, you are not panicking; Why do you think that is?".

I felt myself blush. I didn't know what she was telling me, but I could feel a fire rush through my body like I had never felt before...I thought 'Why am I so embarrassed, my face must be redder than the tomatoes she was advising me to eat more of'. That silly thought seemed to crack her up and she started laughing so hard
that it made me laugh too. Then she said "You know, I kind of like you! For a human, you are not all that bad, even if not so bright!"! She turned into the beautiful girl again and I saw her eyes were dancing with delight again. Then she said "It may not seem to you like you are making progress within your dreams, but you are. You need to be patient with this. If you really DO trust me, that is". I replied that I really did trust her, and she was very fast to put a finger against my chest, and I knew she meant to not take those feelings any further. One step at a time, dear love, one step at a time..Then she said something so completely obscure that I had no idea what to think of it. See how the White Eagle flies, become the White Eagle.

Dream your dreams, be your dreams, don't let your dreams go, don't settle, don't believe so very foolishly that the consensus reality around you is all that there is. I said "But it is all I know". She replied "No it is not! You know your dreams, too. Even if you don't understand them yet, and even if that lack of understanding frustrates you, they are still a part of the greater totality, the greater reality of that which you are!". She smiled very sweetly and added Don't be afraid to be different than the masses, ok?. I must go for now, but next time I come, I will take you back in time just a little. It just may help you to understand a little bit better than you do right now. ...

mayflow wrote:I couldn't get her off of my mind after that. I thought about things she had said, but I couldn't understand what she meant about "enhanced and expanded consciousness".. I tried to analyze that, but I just couldn't figure it out...and then, why did she laugh after saying that? She did call me "not the brightest of all humans" as well, and while I knew she was somewhat teasing, I am bright enough to know that most teasing has an element of truth to it. And why did she appear to me? And what did she mean by saying that other humans would also become a part of "this"? I found all of this very confusing! Still, I knew that I did trust her. I thought about how she had changed from direct thought communication, to verbalizing, before asking me about trust. My best guess was that when I would have thought back to her, it would have also included the idea that I had fallen hopelessly in love with her, and that that was not something she was encouraging. And what about this idea of not panicking in these dreams? Would that be possible? After all, it is like she said: To think this while awake is easy, but to think it while dreaming on purpose? I wasn't so sure...I also wondered "Is this her true form? She looked similar both times I saw her, but not quite the same either, and what about the human girl I had met ? She seemed to have the same sort of something in her eyes..and what about...well I just wondered on and on...

The dreams did change, though. I still couldn't stop the panic and frustration fully, but what she had said about looking at the alarm clock to see if I could see it and tell the time, really did work for me. It didn't eliminate the frustration, but it did lessen it considerably. The content of the dreams changed as well, but not for the better! Yes, they were not so benign as most had been before, and they did seem more meaningful, but I kept getting lost in them, and that also caused fear and panic. I would often enter a building, get lost, then finally find my way back out, but then not be able to find my car, and that really frustrated me, as well...

I thought about this for a long time and then, One spring day I was out playing in my vegetable garden, and I just laid in the dirt and looked up into the sky. I saw a White Eagle flying high overhead. It gave out an Eagle scream and I watched it fly off into the distance. I closed my eyes and wondered ( I had been wondering so much about so many things lately, now just one more, I guess).. As I lay there I felt a presence sort of saturate my body. It seemed to be within every fiber of my being. I knew it was HER! She said, "You really should eat more tomatoes, or tomato based foods. Pickles would be good as well, and maybe a little hot pepper, and some garlic--just a suggestion, my love, why don't you open your eyes now"?

I opened my eyes and it was like I was in an entirely different world. Somewhere in deep space. It was like she had created separation between us again and I was looking into her eyes and could see nothing else in the world whatsoever. She said "See, you are looking into my real eyes now. Isn't it very strange to you"? Well, I sure couldn't argue that point! Then she continued "This is even weirder than your dreams, now, isn't it, love"?
Again, no argument. "But you are not scared now, you are not panicking; Why do you think that is?".

I felt myself blush. I didn't know what she was telling me, but I could feel a fire rush through my body like I had never felt before...I thought 'Why am I so embarrassed, my face must be redder than the tomatoes she was advising me to eat more of'. That silly thought seemed to crack her up and she started laughing so hard
that it made me laugh too. Then she said "You know, I kind of like you! For a human, you are not all that bad, even if not so bright!"! She turned into the beautiful girl again and I saw her eyes were dancing with delight again. Then she said "It may not seem to you like you are making progress within your dreams, but you are. You need to be patient with this. If you really DO trust me, that is". I replied that I really did trust her, and she was very fast to put a finger against my chest, and I knew she meant to not take those feelings any further. One step at a time, dear love, one step at a time..Then she said something so completely obscure that I had no idea what to think of it. See how the White Eagle flies, become the White Eagle.

Dream your dreams, be your dreams, don't let your dreams go, don't settle, don't believe so very foolishly that the consensus reality around you is all that there is. I said "But it is all I know". She replied "No it is not! You know your dreams, too. Even if you don't understand them yet, and even if that lack of understanding frustrates you, they are still a part of the greater totality, the greater reality of that which you are!". She smiled very sweetly and added Don't be afraid to be different than the masses, ok?. I must go for now, but next time I come, I will take you back in time just a little. It just may help you to understand a little bit better than you do right now. ...

I like your Reality Girl....she is straight to the point,the kind of person I like.   I dislike anyone who panders to me.
Sucking up as we say in the UK....
Dreams are reality in a way but they come through in a form of dreaming,confusing and hard to understand.   There is always a message there,no matter how confusing they seem.    
Like the heart of feathers and the sword.   That had no meaning to me except to to say that someone didn't like me!....
That didn't bother me one bit,I probably wouldn't like them either.  
So by my own reckoning,Reality Girl is trying to show you not only how to live your life but to enjoy your life.....
Live it like you want to live it....in your own way.....
Everyone has a soul mate but that doesn't say we have to be madly in love with them.    Just being friends is good....
 

No offense by the way.  I just used to know people that did drugs for their spiritual enlightenment and personal gratification.   I just suggest to be weary of dreaming too much because you can lose yourself in your imagination.  That is a trap in hell by the way and that is why psychiatry was made to snap a person out of that psychosis.  I see you are relating your dream to nature which is great.  I like that but I throw emotional feelings into it and they think I am a basket case.  For instance, the catapillar became weary of its environment and found a nice place on the other side of the tree branch to create its cacoon.  The time of its metamorphesis reached maturity and the catapillar woke up from its hibernation state and busted through its own shell to find itself changed into a winged insect of flight.  It ran around the branch to test out its new legs. ... blah blah blah...

People think I am too concere with my self expressions.  I guess it is a demonic thing.

BTW A soul mate is a drifting through material thing.  A good sailor knows what a soul mate is.  They hid them as favorite ship mates because of risks of mutiny and other rebellious disputes of jealousy.  I guess the babies call them BFFs.

avianscepter wrote:No offense by the way.  I just used to know people that did drugs for their spiritual enlightenment and personal gratification.   I just suggest to be weary of dreaming too much because you can lose yourself in your imagination.  That is a trap in hell by the way and that is why psychiatry was made to snap a person out of that psychosis.  I see you are relating your dream to nature which is great.  I like that but I throw emotional feelings into it and they think I am a basket case.  For instance, the catapillar became weary of its environment and found a nice place on the other side of the tree branch to create its cacoon.  The time of its metamorphesis reached maturity and the catapillar woke up from its hibernation state and busted through its own shell to find itself changed into a winged insect of flight.  It ran around the branch to test out its new legs. ... blah blah blah...

People think I am too concere with my self expressions.  I guess it is a demonic thing.

BTW A soul mate is a drifting through material thing.  A good sailor knows what a soul mate is.  They hid them as favorite ship mates because of risks of mutiny and other rebellious disputes of jealousy.  I guess the babies call them BFFs.

1. Oh, no offense taken. Personally I am dreamy enough without drugs but couldn't care less if others take them. For some maybe it is good, for some maybe not so good.

2. Yes, it is much about observing nature and nature's creatures. AMAZING THEY ARE!

3. What does "People think I am too concere with my self expressions.  I guess it is a demonic thing." mean?

4. I was racking my brain trying to figure out how you and SpiritVoices got this soul mate idea into this? Interesting idea though. What does soul mate mean to you all?

if you look in the section about soulmates,you will see quite a few topics in there about them.   A brief explanation is 'someone you can feel a link with,feel comfortable with'......As you have known them all your life....
A lot more to it than that though....

SpiritVoices wrote:if you look in the section about soulmates,you will see quite a few topics in there about them.   A brief explanation is 'someone you can feel a link with,feel comfortable with'......As you have known them all your life....
A lot more to it than that though....

Like that person you met in a dream?

mayflow wrote:

SpiritVoices wrote:if you look in the section about soulmates,you will see quite a few topics in there about them.   A brief explanation is 'someone you can feel a link with,feel comfortable with'......As you have known them all your life....
A lot more to it than that though....

Like that person you met in a dream?

Ah,that was my husband though....different kettle of fish....

Soul mates can be anything to you.   Soul mates can be enemies as well.     Problem with that is,you may have to live countless lives meeting up again and again until those problems are solved.....Imagine hating a soul mate.....and trying to get rid of that hate and feel some respect for them?

SpiritVoices wrote:

mayflow wrote:

SpiritVoices wrote:if you look in the section about soulmates,you will see quite a few topics in there about them.   A brief explanation is 'someone you can feel a link with,feel comfortable with'......As you have known them all your life....
A lot more to it than that though....

Like that person you met in a dream?

Ah,that was my husband though....different kettle of fish....

Soul mates can be anything to you.   Soul mates can be enemies as well.     Problem with that is,you may have to live countless lives meeting up again and again until those problems are solved.....Imagine hating a soul mate.....and trying to get rid of that hate and feel some respect for them?

Naw, I don't want to hate anyone.

That's a good way to be..... 

I got the impression that Reality Girl was more along the lines of a guide.

Kaere wrote:I got the impression that Reality Girl was more along the lines of a guide.

This is my impression as well. This soul mate idea was not mine. I mean, yes, I sometimes felt like I wanted some such thing with her, but she always said that that was not a good approach. She exists on a non ego plane I think.

mayflow wrote:Didn't know where to put this and have mentioned some about these experiences before, but want to put them down in order as I have experienced them.

These taught me a lot about dreaming and about Karma to say the least.

Certain members here and certain ideas and posts have made me think this may be a good time to talk about those experiences..

It all started with a "chance" meeting with a certain girl. She was very
beautiful and we only talked for a few moments, but when I looked into
her eyes, there was something different there. Hard to explain, but I
couldn't forget it. Later that day, I was sitting in my garden, and
I "chanced" to see a yellow caterpillar crawling on a tree trunk. I watched
with entranced delight, and it seemed to stop and look back at me, and I
felt this weird feeling like it had eyes that were like the eyes of the girl I
had met, and my mind went into a sort of altered state of beingness. I
couldn't see or hear and really all my 5 senses seemed to be gone. It was
something like being in a dream, but it wasn't a dream. I could feel
emotions though, very intense emotions. Some like I had never ever felt
before. Inexplicable, but wondrous and rapturous! In this strange state
of being, I saw the caterpillar drop from the tree and disappear into pure
nothingness. I felt so sad, but then appeared a beautiful rose at the trunk
of the tree and peered at me, and it was the same as the girl and the
caterpillar, and I thought "O this cannot be" and with that very thought
the rose disappeared and I returned to normalcy, but I wasn't so fond of
being normal as I used to be!

I woke up the next morning very happy, but it seemed like something
had changed in me. I didn't know what, but something. The day went
well, and later on in the evening I sat out in the garden again, and
thought about what "seemed" to have been an hallucination of sorts
(although the "seeming" magic of the moment was certainly difficult to
remove from my memory). I was hoping something similar would happen
again, but although everything was so tranquil and peaceful and happy,
there was no hoped for re-occurance of the experience. That night
though, I had some very strange dreams...


Chances don't just happen
they happen for reasons
just like trees grow and drop leaves in
their various seasons

Eyes don't just glow and entrance
they enhance the very world around them
and envelop the very same world
that has no power to entrap them...

Reading your description again to get a better feel of it.   I realised that you had the same feeling I had after 'seeing' hubby in a dream.   Not so much because it was him,though it was great seeing him so healthy again.   It was a feeling of love and rapture which I picked up from the spirit world.   Yes,I firmly believe that is where the dream took me.  It is a feeling one cannot describe in words....

nest'rd love'rd exhale is so so ton - like fire rock off the cozy .. .