My grandmother on my mom's side has pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed back in February when they found a block to her bile duct after being brought into the doctor with yellow skin. This block has been temporarily opened by a stent. Since then I have visited her and speak with her as I always have on the phone a few times a week. She is now is the process of losing weight, her appetite and beginning to have digestion issues. I have accepted the fact that she will likely pass within a few months. My husband and parents see this coming too. However, my mom's two sisters who are my aunts won't discuss preparing her for her final days. Therefore, the family is divided. My grandmother is a very internal person and I have noticed lately in conversation that she is trying to mask the anxiety she is feeling, because she is well aware of her mortality. What can I do to help her? At this point, I have given up on my aunts directly I can only pray for them. My aunts are very fundamental Christians who believe that this cancer is a family curse. They will not discuss hospice and unfortunately excluded my mom from having access to my grandmothers doctor. I even called hospice to see if I could do something and I cannot without the ability to access medical records. I even had them call my aunt's and they did nothing. I'm just terrified that her soul will not find rest with some much family turmoil. To top it off she has been married to my grandfather for over 65 years, and he has stated that when she goes he won't be far behind.
Now I also believe that my grandfather (on my dad's side) watches over my family. He died before I was born. He was only 54. He especially for some reason contacts me through numbers and they are always 154 or 514. Sometimes, I find it hard to understand what he is trying to say and over the past few days the numbers are back very frequently.
Finally a bit of background, with the numbers in 154 to pull it together. This is what I know:
~My grandfather died at 54 on 5/4/84.
~His ship number in the navy was 54 and my dad's ship number was 154.
~My parents honeymoon suite was 154.
~I was born on 4/5
~My husband's childhood home in Argentina has an area code of 154.
There's more I saved in an email too....
Anyway sorry to ramble, thoughts? I would like to figure out what my grandfather is trying to communicate.
Now I also believe that my grandfather (on my dad's side) watches over my family. He died before I was born. He was only 54. He especially for some reason contacts me through numbers and they are always 154 or 514. Sometimes, I find it hard to understand what he is trying to say and over the past few days the numbers are back very frequently.
Finally a bit of background, with the numbers in 154 to pull it together. This is what I know:
~My grandfather died at 54 on 5/4/84.
~His ship number in the navy was 54 and my dad's ship number was 154.
~My parents honeymoon suite was 154.
~I was born on 4/5
~My husband's childhood home in Argentina has an area code of 154.
There's more I saved in an email too....
Anyway sorry to ramble, thoughts? I would like to figure out what my grandfather is trying to communicate.
