back after a long abscence

blackbirdrising wrote:Hello. Its been almost a year I think since Ive been here. Been very busy with life. Its been pretty rough, i think ive decided thats lifes never fair, but love always is. Love isnt bound to our existence, doesnt depend on it, need it, or even ask it to weigh in an opinion. Love just is.

blackbirdrising wrote:My husbands dying of liver failure. He had multiple organ failure before (7 months ago) and drs were able to get them all restarted. Im caught between two worlds. At least it feels that way. Probably because hes very close to the ethers, making the choice to join his loved ones there, or stay here and fight some more. His mother is such a powerful beacon of hope. I want to be so much, but reality is in my face. I'm thankful for every tiny amount of progress, the smallest proof that his body will accept itself. Their giving him treatment for organ rejection even though its his own organs he keeps rejecting. I just havent wanted to talk to anyone, you know? Its sad and no one needs such a dark picture painted to them. Thats why ive not been around, i just couldnt take it, couldnt find anyway to be of help to anyone. I havent even done a reading in 11 months, not that i cant or that im out of touch, but that i want to spend every moment with Adam. Nothing compares to true love, not marriage, not anything. Hes laying in the hospital bed nrxt to the reclining chair im in. Sleeping, and im focusing on each liver cell, doing spiritual surgery with etheric fingers. Hes absorbed so much energy from a lifetime of being an empath, sensitive soul. I need strength to support him in his final choices.

I recall you well from reading some of your previous posts.  I have always admired your ability not to be beaten by
what has presented itself to you in life.  This post consolidates that perception I have of you.  You have endured so much
and it is to your credit that you manage to bear it all.

It sounds like you sought no support during this particularly difficult time.  Since you seem to now be in a carer's role
now, I am wondering if you know of carer's forums?  I live in UK and there is one here which was very supportive when
I was a full time carer for my mother.  Is there a carer's forum in US?   Would have thought so.  If not, I do hope that
you have friends who are comforting you.

I take my rainbow crotchet hat off to you and send you and your husband much love.        

blackbirdrising wrote:Dont count him off yet :) After the spiritual surgery, lab results show that the liver damage is reversing and his expected lifespan (based on lab numbers) just jumped from 3 months to 6!